I finally heard God’s call

15 November 2000 16:24

Here is another powerful testimony received last year in response to Vassula’s request for testimonies:

I’ve lived an ordinary life, I guess, I grew up Roman Catholic in Rome, Italy. I served as an altar boy for several years and always felt very comfortable in a church, or among prists. Several times I thought of becoming a man of the cloth myself, however, growing up, any such thoughts were put aside, dismissed as childish ideals. I went on to highschool in Toronto Canada (to where my family had temporarely moved), and had a healthy and happy 5 years.

I was blessed with good, good friends, loving parents, a comfortable financial life, girlfriends, a car at 17 and so on. However there was something else I felt I was missing. The older I got, the stronger that feeling was. I finally graduated from highschhol and found myself having to decide what to do with my life. I decided to stay and study in University, trying to get a Master’s degree in Economics. I was going to study hard, graduate top of the class, make lots of money and have fun, fun, fun.

Over the years in university, I grew unhappy, unmotivated, lost. I thought at first it was because I no longer liked what I was studying. Then I began making excuses, like I was working too hard, not enough female companions, not enough money to enjoy life….. but the more I reached and obtained all those, the more depressed I felt.

One day, while vacationing in South America, my mother gave me the first book of Vassula’s work. I read a couple of messages, and immediatly dismissed it; I felt unconfortable with the intimacy Jesus was showing

her, calling her a bride and all. Besides, she was married and was not
Catholic. As time progressed, my life did not get any easier. In
particular I can’t quite seem to remember, one time I came back to Canada
with one of Vassula’s books. It had been over a year since I first saw
it, and now my older sister had adviced me to read it over. I did and

again, the same feelings of awkwardness sprang up.

However, no sooner had I read two messages, that I felt a jolt in my heart. Suddenly, I found myself reading the messages often coming to tears (and those who know me, know that I have a tough guy reputation).

Slowly, the more I read the messages, the more I wanted to read. After years of abandoning it, I began to pray again, to read the scriptures more and to even go to confession (something that I hadn’t done in years). Also I began to see the words Jesus was speaking to Vassula apply to me as well, to my life. Scriptures made sense, I saw everything in a new light, I felt closer to the Father than ever. I realized more than ever how much of a sinner I was, but at the same time how much Jesus was ready to forgive, without hesitation, without blame.

All this did not happen overnight, I’ve been reading God’s messages to Vassula for a few years now. I could go into much greater detail about all the little transformations that God has worked in me through those messages, but I would not want to write the great epic!! Probably, though, the greatest (surely the most significant) is that I finally heard God’s call, and this time He gave me the courage to be able to say yes.

I am leaving tomorrow to go back to Rome and enter the seminary, and if Jesus can find some space for this poor servant, I shall wish to become a priest myself. I do not think I would have been able to finally come to my sense had God not touched me day after day and filled me (when I most needed) with the Holy Spirit. I do not know who in authority in the Church will be reading this, but I most humbly beg of you to allow God to touch your heart the way He has touched mine; really seeing, is a marvelous gift He has given us. As He himself told Vassula in the message of Dec.14 1986:

“I am your Consoler. It (this guidance) will lead many to me, it will revive my children to come back to me and read my Word.”

After years of struggle and sadness, He has come to me most sweetly and consol me, I had come back to the Church and God, and He woke me up from my sleep. I wish I could express in much more details and much more eloquently all the changes that I have enjoyed while reading these messages. I have re-discovered what it means to really love, God and our neighbors, what it means to be charitable and selfless. I have rediscovered our Holy Mother, Her tenderness toward us, I have found my Father again.

Though He was always there, I ran away and when I came back, sinful, unworthy, lost, He did not reject me, nor blame me, He took me by the hand and is leading me to do His Will. I thank and praise our King Almighty for his Mercy on us, may He forgive us all and keep us away from danger. May He open all our hearts so that we may learn to love Him and one another as he Loves us. I pray that the Mighty and most Holy Trinity might illuminate the minds and melt the hearts of those who are in charge of His flock here on earth, as we anxiously await His Glorious return, amen.