Now I do love God

16 February 2001 16:05

This testimony is from a Japanese lady living in Poland.

I was converted when I met a good priest in February 1997. Though I had been baptized in 1977 before marriage, shortly after that I stopped going to church because of my poor understanding of Polish and also of disappointment with the preaching. After conversion, the priest became my spiritual father. But he was not happy for me to read a book “The Marian Movement of Priests” by Don Gobbi and almost forbade it, saying that this movement is rather for priests, not for me.

Then I met True Life in God. I knew that the book existed, but I did not want to read it at that time, thinking why I had to read a book written by an Orthodox woman? But because the publisher, Vox Domini, recommended it, I started to read. From the first page, it caught me, and later I could feel the existence of God, so near. This Message filled me with endless Love of God that I had not known, so far, from reading Bible.

I always believed in God and wanted to be good, but it was mostly because of feelings of obligation, not from love towards God. Now I do love God and I know it is blessing from God. I thank God for everything that I have received from Him so far.

I am a concert pianist and from the moment I started to love God really, my playing became far better than before. I often feel that I do not play alone any more, but with the Holy Spirit. My pain is that I cannot repay it to God. God’s choice of person, who had been also far from God, and the slow process of her education by God fitted me very much, because I could also experience learning just as Vassula did.

I had been so enthusiastic with True Life in God, that I gave the book to my spiritual father. He accepted it at first, but after a month he started to prohibit me from reading it. He threatened me that if I spread this book among believers, he would not give me forgiveness in confession and would not guide me any more.

I had to consider deeply what to do; whether to listen to my spiritual father or read God’s Message. I started to think if it is really Message from God or not because of my spiritual father’s strong words. So I read and read until I could be sure it was from God. It was very painful for me to tell him that I had decided to stay with God’s Message and not with him. It was like Vassula’s separation from Daniel, because I respected that priest very much.

After that, I looked for another spiritual father and found one. He also was afraid of reading the Message from God at first, because here in Poland, priests are taught to believe only the Bible, not private appearence(they use this word)of God or Holy Mother. But he was blessed by God, when he read he knew it was God’s Message and he thanked God.

I had been praying for my first spiritual father so that he would start reading God’s Message. It took one and half year before he said, “Pity that the Church has not accepted yet these (Vassula, Gobbi and Valtorta) Messages from God!” I now know that God took my first spiritual father from me so that I could live in True Life in God and also meet my second spiritual father who teaches me to be modest and moderate.

In Poland, the Marian Movements of Priests is forbidden. Vassula’s books can not be sold at Catholic bookstores. Valtorta’s books also have problem. So it is very difficult to spread these books, but because I am a foreigner here, priests accept them from me so far. I pray so that as many people as possible, especially priests, would read this Message from God and really know the Face of God, it means LOVE. I would do anything for it.