Saturday, October 12, 2002 1:57 PM

I have revealed Myself to those who did not consult Me

Here is another testimony from the website discussion list:

In 1970 I stopped going to Sunday Mass, Communion, and the Church. I became very critical of the Church and belittled the Church, its stuffy hierarchy, its riches, pomposity, the priests, bishops, cardinals, the Pope, etc. I had a great career, all the material things, world travels, a loving marriage and family. I was a scientist, I was smart, I did not believe in non-scientific mush. I did not need God, I did not think of Jesus. I thought anyone who read the Bible needed to get a life. I was doing just fine and was very happy.

It was on Thursday before Good Friday in 1999, when I happened to watch a TV program about the life of Jesus. I watched it with the usual criticisms of how poor the acting, how boring the story. But, I did not change channels and continued watching. At the end of the program, one thing struck me deeply – the unconditional love Jesus had for everyone, rich, poor, healthy, sick, the good, the bad… Since the following day was Good Friday and I still remembered that stations of the Cross was on that day, I decided to go and see what changed after 29 years. Some things changed: no one wore a veil, and the attire was casual compared to pre 1970’s. It was when they sang ‘Were you there when they crucified my Lord’ that I could not contain my tears. I did not understand why I felt so emotional and it was embarrassing (I did not care since I knew no one there). After the Stations, I saw people lining up by the confessional and I decided to go – I cried in the confessional and I cried all the way home. My husband was alarmed by my condition – I told him there is nothing wrong, did not get into an accident, no one died, and he’s not guilty of anything. I went to Church on Sunday and received communion for the first time in 29 years. I was happy, with a feeling I still cannot describe, but, I would also cry uncontrollably each time I received communion; this went on for over three months.

My scientific mind could not accept why this was happening to me but that was when I believed with my heart that I was receiving the Body and Blood of my Lord Jesus. That was when I wanted to know everything I could find about Jesus. I read the Bible, but I could not understand it. I read the bestsellers on how to read the Bible, on what the Bible is all about, about God, about Jesus – but all I got was more confusion. Then I switched to books by the Church Fathers, well known theologians, books about saints, books by protestant preachers – they were better, but still did not satisfy me. Then, around may of this year, someone loaned me a book (Vassula’s Book I). I agreed to read it out of curiosity and also for the purpose to tell the person what rubbish such books were. However, once I started reading, I felt a bond, a familiar love from Jesus coming at me that I was not accustomed of nor ever imagined but somehow it felt right, it felt familiar, and it felt peace like finally coming home. I bought all the TLIG books and many of the tapes. Now, I am reading the Bible with a hunger that I cannot describe – it is more exciting than discovering a new chemical compound or even a new world. Now my life is different, my priorities are different, and I finally see what I have been missing all these years even though I thought I had everything I really had nothing. I did not seek My Lord, I did not deserve My Lord, but by His grace He found me.

“I have been found by those who did not seek Me and have revealed Myself to those who did not consult Me. So I, the Lord, tell you – open your hearts, not your mind!” June 2, 1988

“I shall make the prophecies of Isaiah come true: “I have been found by those who did not seek Me and have revealed Myself to those who did not consult Me” June 18, 1992