Saturday, October 12, 2002 1:57 PM

I have revealed Myself to those who did not consult Me

Here is another testimony from the website discussion list:

In 1970 I stopped going to Sunday Mass, Communion, and the Church. I became very critical of the Church and belittled the Church, its stuffy hierarchy, its riches, pomposity, the priests, bishops, cardinals, the Pope, etc. I had a great career, all the material things, world travels, a loving marriage and family. I was a scientist, I was smart, I did not believe in non-scientific mush. I did not need God, I did not think of Jesus. I thought anyone who read the Bible needed to get a life. I was doing just fine and was very happy.

It was on Thursday before Good Friday in 1999, when I happened to watch a TV program about the life of Jesus. I watched it with the usual criticisms of how poor the acting, how boring the story. But, I did not change channels and continued watching. At the end of the program, one thing struck me deeply – the unconditional love Jesus had for everyone, rich, poor, healthy, sick, the good, the bad… Since the following day was Good Friday and I still remembered that stations of the Cross was on that day, I decided to go and see what changed after 29 years. Some things changed: no one wore a veil, and the attire was casual compared to pre 1970’s. It was when they sang ‘Were you there when they crucified my Lord’ that I could not contain my tears. I did not understand why I felt so emotional and it was embarrassing (I did not care since I knew no one there). After the Stations, I saw people lining up by the confessional and I decided to go – I cried in the confessional and I cried all the way home. My husband was alarmed by my condition – I told him there is nothing wrong, did not get into an accident, no one died, and he’s not guilty of anything. I went to Church on Sunday and received communion for the first time in 29 years. I was happy, with a feeling I still cannot describe, but, I would also cry uncontrollably each time I received communion; this went on for over three months.

My scientific mind could not accept why this was happening to me but that was when I believed with my heart that I was receiving the Body and Blood of my Lord Jesus. That was when I wanted to know everything I could find about Jesus. I read the Bible, but I could not understand it. I read the bestsellers on how to read the Bible, on what the Bible is all about, about God, about Jesus – but all I got was more confusion. Then I switched to books by the Church Fathers, well known theologians, books about saints, books by protestant preachers – they were better, but still did not satisfy me. Then, around may of this year, someone loaned me a book (Vassula’s Book I). I agreed to read it out of curiosity and also for the purpose to tell the person what rubbish such books were. However, once I started reading, I felt a bond, a familiar love from Jesus coming at me that I was not accustomed of nor ever imagined but somehow it felt right, it felt familiar, and it felt peace like finally coming home. I bought all the TLIG books and many of the tapes. Now, I am reading the Bible with a hunger that I cannot describe – it is more exciting than discovering a new chemical compound or even a new world. Now my life is different, my priorities are different, and I finally see what I have been missing all these years even though I thought I had everything I really had nothing. I did not seek My Lord, I did not deserve My Lord, but by His grace He found me.

« I have been found by those who did not seek Me and have revealed Myself to those who did not consult Me. So I, the Lord, tell you – open your hearts, not your mind! » June 2, 1988

« I shall make the prophecies of Isaiah come true: « I have been found by those who did not seek Me and have revealed Myself to those who did not consult Me » June 18, 1992