My God, Father, King of kings,

until Your encounter

I was lying half-dead,

until You appeared to me…

and before The Divine I stood,

uncomprehending, in awe!

I stood before the Creator,

just as a child clothed in dirty

filthy rags standing

in front of Wonderland;

Bemused, You smiled at me,

You smiled although

I was still in infernal darkness;

I was confused and bewildered,

especially hearing You say;

“blessed are the pure in heart

for theirs

is the Kingdom of Heaven;”

when suddenly You opened Your Lips

to speak again, a stream of Light

as a ray, shone out of Your Mouth,

brightening my soul,

while Your Immortal Breath

came upon me,

refreshing my memory – a miracle –

for the more I contemplated You,

the more I recognized You

and remembered You;

Who has put Wisdom freely

in the inward parts of my soul?

I genuinely do not consider myself

worthy to be one;

but withdraw not from me! in the past,

my eyes still with scales

of unrepentance,

with death looming above my head,

You sent me a great Seraphim,

who flew over to reach me,

not to embrace me,

but to purge my sins

out of my system;

and wash away my filthy rags;

this was, Father,

the beginning in me

of a new form of being,

realizing my immortality

so long as we dwell in You…

this is how it was with me

in my first steps

towards this Radiant Light that is You,

God, our Father…

where can I find words powerful

enough to express

my feelings to You about You?

in whatever way I will,

I will still fall short;

my spirit yearns

after Your Paternal Love;

consumed with thirst of Love

for You, Yahweh, I await You daily,

even in my dreams;

without Your Loving Hand,

not for an instance

would I have held out against

the storms of fiery persecutions

that encircled me all these years!

but they all disappear

in Your Presence,

and I, as You once said,

feel like a bird,

free, soaring the skies, I feel free!