November 27, 1986

(Doubts! doubts and doubts!)

My heart is trembling and my breath is fading away, terror dwells within me; I am the most wretched if I’m wrong in all this. Horror swells my heart; ah, and the devil laughs at my fear… my God! my God give me a sign! Am I the prey of the devil?

peace be with you! I am Yahweh and I rule the heavens and the earth; I am the Most High; lean on Me for I love you; here,1 hold the crucifix in your hand;2 see,3 I locked your fingers together; I love you; I will loosen your hand now; feel loved by Me, daughter, and trust Me; go in peace;

(“Again Yahweh spoke to Moses, ‘Put your hand into your bosom. ’ He put his hand into his bosom and when he drew it out, his hand was covered with leprosy, white as snow. ‘Put your hand back into your bosom. ’ He put his hand back into his bosom and when he drew it out, there it was restored, just like the rest of his flesh. ”) (Ex. 4: 7)

November 28, 1986

(I feel totally discouraged; I did not ask for all this to happen to me. Why should it be this way? What have I done?)

daughter? never be discouraged by men;

No one is with me, no one believes me, am I mad? Why do they blame me because You speak to me?

look at Me;4 be happy! rejoice, for I am beside you; feel happy, for I am near you; I, Jesus Christ will always be with you; rejoice! I have given you this gift to reach Me and talk to Me in this way and believe Me, daughter, when I tell you that so few have your gift, although they are countless in numbers those who would have wished to have your gift; so rejoice! be happy;

1 God was going to give me a sign.
2 I took in my writing hand a crucifix which was on the table.
3 My hand got so locked that I could not let go the crucifix nor the pencil or lift my hand from the page either. But when He said: “I will loosen your hand now.” My fingers opened.
4 I looked at Jesus’ most loving Face. His expression was full of Compassion.